too bad and i am sorry for all this mess that i did.
during my conversation with anyone about life time. i had touched towards one thing. one word. RELATIONSHIP. oh! gosh. i really love to scram for that word. seeing others having a good relationship never made my day at all. yeah! i was being a nasty gf before. i am sorry.
everytime i hangout with my friends and walking around people. what i don't like most to see that, their eyes all on the fucking PHONE. shut it! i am sorry. i just sad. i can't make one good relationship. i mad of myself of being nasty everytime and mad of myself being selfish. but hey, i believe that, it just not me the one that i am suppose to blame. them too. shit!
if i say this straight to their face politely, they probably say "tu ko nye masalah. ko da clash gn dier. masalah ko la. nak kaitkan aku nape". wow! hurm. i know, but...
gee, do i deserve this sort of failure in my life? how dreadful i deserve this compliment and treat. well, i observe it. how long am i going to be like this? am i just going to change just because of a guy? or i need to change because I DO NEED A MAKEOVER? haha.
people keep saying that i have this childish filty demeanour that bother them so much.
people keep saying that i act immature because just to get attention
people keep saying that i be like this because i am a loser
who's the judges?
should i listen to them?
they told me to stop blaming others. how am i suppose to agree with that after what i get the treatment? urgh!
wahid,
itsnin,
talataah,
arba'ah,
khamsah,
sittah
sab'ah,
TAMANIAH?!
those are the numbers that i keep counting each of everydays. numbers that i got dumped because of my stupidity, selfish, ego, and being unprofessional in solving or saying something.
hurmm??
