i'm not happy

i just finished my 2 last final papers just now. first was my science aquatic and daily life. well, it wasn't that bad actually. but if i studied more and consistently, probably i will get good marks though. but i gave simple and compact answer anyway. so, i had to leave the hall early than what i didn't expected. the paper started at 9.00 am but i managed to finish all up at 10.30am. didn't i said it wasn't that bad? it's true. fortunately my lecturer wasn't there to witnesses me left the hall early. phew! by the time i was ready to left the hall, i don't get it until now. why the rest are still doing the paper? their answers were like dang! full one piece of paper. well of course i started to panic but i don't want to make my answer rubbish. so i had to do it pinpoint and described them simple. then came my 2nd paper. it was management. before i entered the hall. my friend who took the same paper as i am that morning told me that my lecturer wasn't satisfied and kinda upset of my paper. ok! i started to panic a little bit and at the same time it distracted my focusing on my 2nd paper. dang! what the hell anyways. i can't recall anything what i have studied for the 2nd paper. i felt like my brain was format. empty and hopeless. but alhamdulillah i managed to rubbish all my 2nd paper with my logic thinking answers. haha! is the only way for me to answer it. what to do!

but overall. i am not happy with my reputation while i'm studying here in unimas, sarawak.
not just the studying environment. but the people surrounding me itself.
i'm still not happy until now.

i'm not happy with my attitude. i'm not happy in the way people told me to be or not to be. shit! sometimes i hate people surrounding me. some people not all.

i'm not happy at all.

well, i just realized something that i should have thanked to my lecturer who willing to help me to get good marks for his paper. i refused to help myself to get good result. i don't like to suck up lecturers. for me it such a lame excuses. suck up your lecturer but once you graduate who else can you suck up in the real life? your bosses? hurm. it's not that i'm not trying my best to study hard is just that i hate people want me to suck up them. shit!

well, anyways. today is my unhappy day. and i say, it is my unhappy day of my entire life.

ciou~

SMILE (Senyum)

recite the speech after solah

"Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku. Sekiranya Engkau Mengetahui Sesuatu Perkara Itu Baik Buatku, Agamku Serta Urusanku Buat Masa Ini Mahupun Akan Datang. Maka, Permudahkannya Bagiku Tapi Sekiranya Ia Tidak Baik Buatku, Agamaku Serta Urusanku Buat Masa Ini Mahupun Akan Datang Maka Jauhkannya Dariku. Sesungguhnya Engkaulah Maha Berkuasa Ke Atas Sesuatu."

Amin..

: doa sembahyang solat isthikarah

it's good to recite this speech after solat. INSYA ALLAH, ALLAH will fulfill your wish for those who are needed HIS HELP and GUIDE.



-Love Islam-

the best welcoming ever

i had this video from a friend of mine who was video taping me while i was ready to fly into the blue sky with abg amin. unfortunately that time, the wind wasn't that pleasant. both me and abg amin were dragged backwards and fell from 2 meters gully. fortunately, there was a small house blocked us from falling to more than 10 meters cliff. phew! can't escape from injury for any types of extreme activities like this. it's already a must thing to earn as a gift or token of participating. haha. both of us doing well after the accident. but the injury wasn't an excused for me to not to try again flying. i did. i did fly finally with richard after that. and it was the best experienced ever.

thanks to abg laili, abg amin, en. sulim and adorable richard.

maju lah sukan untuk negara. hehe


p/s - ndak sakit bha. suka adalah. hehe