Dina Syameem

Assalammualaikum

Thanks baby girl!

Job hunting is still in progress. Finding the suitable job due to my matter? To be frank, its kinda hard. Nor a bit complicated. But recently I'm still with Petrosains. This time, I'm working with my brother. Since he is a program developer for Petrosains. So he insisted me to work for him. Tiring? Same routine? No comment! People kept saying "Petrosains? Again? Don't you ever feel bored with it?". Simple but compact answer "Should feel lucky enough that Petrosains still accepting me whenever I wanted to work. What to ask for more?".

Yesterday (29th April 2012) I was working late. Suddenly received a call from my dearest friend, Dina Syameem. She invited me to join her along for a show. Though I was tired. But still feel like to have fun. No excuses. I accepted her invitation. But..
To be frank. I got a bit surprised regarding on her invitation. Hehe. Sorry for being too honest. But eversince after we left high school. Inviting her or her invitation. Isn't easy to get me to her. She always with her close friend (my friend either), Amira Jasmi. As far as I know, if there is no Amira isn't around. She wouldn't want to join any of my hangout time.
Just neglected it. As long as I'm having fun. That won't be a problem to me.

The show was at 8:30pm. I got home at 7:10pm. She can't stop calling me. Asking me whether have I arrive yet home or not? She was eager. I was, tired/blur. At the moment, I was supposed to expecting a phone call from boyfriend. Turned out to be disaster. Sad and pissed. I left the house and hoping the show make my day.

So, after done with maghrib. I picked Dina at her home. She was thrilled. Then we off to the show. Alhamdulillah. Traffic jam? Made a good day ahead of me. Hungry, tired and pissed. Didn't made me a good driver that night. Haha. Dina got worried the way I'm driving. I nearly crashed another car. Luckily for me. When it comes on driving. I have the best focus skill. Haha. No, for real.

Finally we had arrived at the place, safely. The show was at Jaya One, Petaling Jaya. By the time we were busy looking for a parking. We got our eyes on the people who attended the show. Highlight! "Fashion"! Girls with fashion are like diamonds are girls bestfriend. *Am I prolog it right?* I just had a golden jamban slipper, tight jeans and Rolling Stones t-shirt. Dina had her pretty suitable with the show. But nah! Simple is what I love most. We went bought the ticket and managed to joke around with the guy on the counter. Yeah! He promised us that the seat that he chosen for us were the best. So, I kept his promises. Officially, It was my second time attending theater. Thanks Dina!The show was about to start. The place was cozy because it was in air-conditioned room. The seats. The stage. And the people. So lovely. And talking about the seats, the ticket guy was right. Our seats were the best. The view was awesome. We were fortunate. Haha. Then the show has began..

They had like 7 to 8 scenes. Every scenes were related to reality life that we are living in. It was hilarious. No lies. They were funny. They were 7 of them. 3 girls and 4 boys. And one of the boys were one of an cute actor, Redza Minhat. Not bad looking but married with a kid. Good job, brother! Every scenes always have a favourite to the audience. Personally saying mine was the "Ombak Rindu" and "Tog" show.

Haha. They had me so bad. I was teared up with joy. Laughed like crazy. I wish I had it on video. Unfortunately, I was to busy capturing and enjoying the show itself. The dancing part, "Rempit" in "Tron Legacy" action was superb. Never thought of it. The lanterns were amazing. The singing? Whoa! They should have wrote the lyrics and post it on the blog or facebook. Scary yet amusing. So many scenes to tell. So many things to recall. And so many things to tell during the show begin. I had myself a good time.

The show ended at 10:30pm. Both thought of taking a picture or two with the crews. But we were in a hurry. Dina got herself classes the next morning (oh yeah! She is a teacher. Practical. Not working entirely). Coincidence, tummy had played the reggae songs. I was so damn hungry! We off to the Bee's restaurant. By the time we went down the stairs. Its closed! Searched the suitable place to eat. We got unlucky. We packed and heading back home. But wait, on the way off to home. Old Town Restaurant was opened. So we ended eating there with 2 asam laksa and a hot milk tea. Fuh! FULLED!

Off the road. To home. On the way back, we weren't stopped talking about the show. We damn honestly saying it was the best show. Thanks Project Disko Baldi In Love. You made my day!

Sent her back home. Off to bed. That's all. 'til we meet again guys. Don't forget the next project. Looking forward to it. To Dina, thanks baby girl. Have a great day, people.

Wassalam..

Love!

Thanks kitty

Assalammualaikum,

I couldn't bear the tears about last night unexpected event. Where I accidentally rolled over the kitty. I told my brother about the accident. He got shocked. But he convinced me that Insya ALLAH the kitty will be okay.

I was working with my brother. Later afternoon, asked me what type of kitty it was? I barely saw its colour. Because it was midnight thou. But what i remember was its has a thick quarter long tail. Abang got surprised. He said that the kitty was at home. Laying on the ground helplessly. I got numb.

So, when we got back from work. Abang showed me the kitty. And yes, it was the kitty that I accidentally rolled over. I thought its sleeping. So, I crawled near its slowly. No move. Mouth was wide open. Smell like a dead kitty. But I convinced myself that the kitty was sleeping. Its going to be okay. I got closer to it. But still, no move at all.

I called abang. Showed and asked about the kitty. And the kitty was already passed away. I cried. And told it that I was sorry. I think its came back because its wanted me and abang to bury him. I think he forgive me. That is why he came back too.

I'm so thankful to Allah. And thankful to the kitty for forgiving me and come back home.

REST IN PEACE, KITTY. I LOVE YOU.


Wassalam..

Pathetic Me

Assalammualaikum

Just now. I did something bad that until now, I felt regret. I was about to start my car off to buy a dinner. I switched on the radio. When I'm about to reverse the car. Suddenly I felt like I hit something. Like a rock. When I hit it, I heard the music made a weird sound. A small sound. So, I just straight reversed the car. Looked at the center mirror car. I saw something. A thing that I just hit. A helpless cat.

I ACCIDENTALLY HIT THE CAT. I SWEAR TO ALLAH, I DIDN'T MEANT TO HIT IT. I got panic. I was paranoid. I was in a hurry to buy the dinner. I left the cat. The cat managed to lift up its head and tail. I cried like crazy. I prayed and prayed hoping for the cat is in a good condition. I swear to Allah. I didn't meant it.

I was off to buy the dinner. I called my friend. A friend that own more than 3 cats. So, I'm sure that she is expertise. I called her. I cried on the phone like I lost someone that I love. She told me to calm and will coming to my home and see whether the cat is okay or not. I admit. I got paranoid. So, I was so scared to see the cat. I was so stupid. Until now, I can still imagine that the cat was looking and asking me for help. And maybe the cat itself saying "Why do you leave me in pain, dear human?".

I know it may sound funny. But look at the bright side. Its breathing. Thou it doesn't have any brain to think like human. Yet its still breathing like human. Eat like human. And I love animal.

After I called my friend, Ain. I called my boyfriend. At first. The plan was I was asking for his accompany. Accompanied me to buy dinner. But I accidentally cried to him. So, he thought that I got upset because he didn't wanted to accompany me. So, I told him the truth. Lastly, picked him up. Told him from A to Z.

Thought of telling him. I got myself calm. I've got to admit. He did calmed me down. But I got paranoid. I was so scared. I got panic. The helpless cat was still on my mind. Unfortunately, I couldn't calm. He got pissed. He insisted to help me. I told him it's okay. Ain will be there to help me. He got pissed. It was my fault. I shouldn't cried in front of him. He hates me crying anyway. It was a bad move. I'm sorry. I really got panic and paranoid.

So, I went to KFC for dinner with him. We didn't talked. Shit. I thought his accompanied will helped me. But I made it worst. I got panic. I still can't stop panicking. I sent him back. Went back home and looked for the cat.

The cat wasn't there. In my mind. There was 2 things of possibilities. 1st was its alive. Minor injury. 2nd its dead. Someone buried its already. But my feelings still couldn't calm. I felt so bad. I didn't go back and help the helpless cat. I'm sorry cat.

Ain arrived. She asked me what happen. I told her everything. She said the same thing. Couldn't be its alive or dead and someone saw it. I managed to keep cool. She went back home. I called my boyfriend. Yeah, he still pissed.

I'm pretty upset to myself tonight. Why? Because I just disappointed 4 living things today :

1. I'm sorry cat. I should have gone back and help you. But I was too scared. I got panic. I hope and prayed to Allah that you are in a good condition.
2. Went wrong bought 4 drumstick KFC. Mom don't like much drumstick. I have disappointed her so bad. Thou she didn't showed her disappointment. Yet can tell. I'm really sorry ma.
3. I shouted and fought with my boyfriend. I disappointed you. I'm sorry for making you hate me now and forever. But I swear to Allah. I got panic so bad. In my life, I never got a experienced of hitting a alive animal. Make this was the first one. And swear wont want to forgive myself. Before this I accidentally unorganized my 7 hamsters. I accidentally made them died. Animal can't be stress. Once they stress, they will die. So, do human. That is why I got to tell you. I got paranoid. I'm panic so bad. I'm sorry for shouting at you. You calmed me down already by saying "It's okay. You didn't meant it. I killed animals too. Ants, cockroaches and lizards. It's okay." I'm sorry I got panic. I'm sorry I've made you like you didn't help me anything. You did. But I was too scared. I'm sorry.
4. Ain, sorry for making you come to my house tonight. I swear. Its was there. Thank you for coming. Thank you for helping me.
   

Hope only Allah can repay the deeds that they have done to me..

Sorry I've disappointed you guys.

Wassalam..

Thanks Ma!

Assalammualaikum,

What a day. I had a best day today with mom, finally. Although I had messed up at first. But alhamdulillah, it turned up to be okay once we off to KLCC. Mom wanted to buy herself a shampoo from Body Shop. I just accompanied her. But I had a fun time, eventhough it just for awhile.

Then after done with the shopping at Body Shop. We went for lunch. Oh my god! there were so many people there. Crowded. Annoying! But hey, KLCC isn't mine anyway. Why should I get annoyed? I was there too. So, need to stop those annoyed attitude. Haha!

Before we had our lunch. Kinda begged mom for a shoe. A ballet shoe. For strolling around the mall or what-so-ever function. Because everytime I went out with her, I always wore a slipper or sandal. So, kinda need a walking shoe.

Guess where she brought me? Massimo Dutti! Oh my god! I thought she brought me to a cheap place. But she prefer a shoe that can wear it last long. So, she reccomended me Massimo Dutti. She chosen a cute design anyway. Mom, knows what good for their kids, right? And couldn't agreed more on her taste. It was beautiful. Kinda snake skin design. But Definitely not a snake skin. Because I against on Animal Abuse.Oh I almost forgot. I bought a roll comb too. From Body Shop. Need to be a bit cheapskate here. The price was unreasonable. Gee! What does it from? Human hair? Come on. The price is similar to a tee that I bought from Forever 21. Same unreasonable. I don't get it with people, why things nowadays like making people to be poor. Hmm. As what I was informed. Every products in Body Shop are made organic. Yet cutting down trees. So, where is it the go green thing? Huhu. Lastly, I bought it anyway. Pathetic me.Perfect outing day with mom. Kinda miss outing with her anyway, to be frank. And of course, I miss outing with my dearest father too. I love you, baba. Al-fatihah...

That's all. I'm really happy because got out with mom. Thanks ma! Love you too.

Wassalam..

Nothing but a Song

Assalammualaikum,

Its morning, 1:22am. Still awake. I'm kinda want to write about what caused me feel this morning is like a wake up call. I was actually watching television at my parents room. Got bored. I kept switching the channels like crazy. Suddenly there was this song caught my attention to watch it. It s a American Idol. So this girl was singing Pink's song tittle Perfect.

I know its already seasoned. But, the melody, rhythm and most of all the lyrics has caught my attention. So, I sang along with the participant. She sang it well. Suddenly a wake up call. Came and knock my heart and mind out.

Went straight to my room. And right now, I'm listening to the song. I've kept repeating it all over again. Why I said Pink's Perfect as my wake up call? Try and get the feel of the lyrics. I bet you will understand it.

Pink -Perfect

Made a wrong turn, Once or twice
Dug my way out, Blood and fire
Bad decisions, That's alright
Welcome to my silly life

Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss "no way, it's all good", It didn't slow me down
Mistaken, Always second guessing
Under estimated, Look, I'm still around

Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like your less than less perfect.
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing
You are perfect to me.

You're so mean,
When you talk, About yourself, You are wrong.
Change the voices, In your head
Make them like you Instead.

So complicated,
Look happy, You'll make it!
Filled with so much hatred
Such a tired game.
It's enough, I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same.

Oh, Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like your less than less perfect.
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing
You are perfect to me.

The whole world stares so I swallow the fear,
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer.
So cool in line and we try, try, try,
But we try too hard, it's a waste of my time.
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere
They don't like my jeans, they don't get my hair
We change ourselves and we do it all the time

Why do we do that? Why do I do that?
(Why do I do that?)

[Yeah~, Ohh~ pretty pretty please, Ohh~]

Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like your less than lessperfect.
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing
You are perfect to me.

You're perfect, You're perfect
Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like your less than less perfect.
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing
You are perfect to me.

I have to admit. I have a silly life. Everybody knows it. I feel challenge with other girls who knows how to dress up and impress guys with their beauty. While I'm not. I'm not that good enough to be with a guy that really sees me as I am. Not me in other girls' body. So, I had a bad dress code. But I'm comfortable with it. I know I can't be the best to a guy. But I can love and care. Like the lyrics said "Change the voices, In your head. Make them like you Instead." I'm really trying. Hope I can do it. And don't give a damn about others "Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere. They don't like my jeans, they don't get my hair. We change ourselves and we do it all the time."

I do have a fear. And I have got to admit, those fear has been controlling my life since I'm a girl. I used to be an independence person. Couldn't careless what have people said about who I am. But eversince there is too many people started to open their dirty mouth and underestimated me. I took fear and let it control me instead. That is why I couldn't stood up for my right sometimes. Because I don't want to hurt others' feeling. I made one worst. I'm not doing it again. I stood up for certain things and follow the flow. Like Pink said "The whole world stares so I swallow the fear, The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer. So cool in line and we try, try, try, But we try too hard, it's a waste of my time." Take a chill. And play the song.

Others may sees me a weirdo. Couldn't listen to others. But take calm, I will realize what I've done wrong in my own way. I don't need Smash Mouth to push me around and hoping that I can change drastically. I will. But Don't push me too much! What right is right. What wrong is wrong.

Every words on the lyrics. Its like..

"If you are down. No one can bring you up. But only you. Keep your faith to Allah. Never give up. Allah will never test you if HE knows HIS man can't bear with the test. Keep thinking of HIM whenever you down. Insya ALLAH. He will light up your life." Amin..

Wassalam...

Hurm..

Assalammualaikum,

" Sometimes a girl keeps going back to a guy who treats her bad; because she's not ready to give up hope that maybe someday he'll change. "

Wassalam..